Here We Go Again

It’s been seven months since my last post, and since then I’ve welcomed my fifth child and relocated twice for my husband’s job. We have adjusted to our new normal as a family of seven, and while this fifth baby may have been the surprise of my life, he is pure joy and I am so thankful that God gave him to us.

I’m around 2 months postpartum, and due to the coronavirus pandemic I have had a lot of time to think about my personal calling. I read a quote that said “In the rush to get back to normal, what parts of normal are worth getting back to?” This has really stuck with me, and once again I am attempting to tackle the LSAT.

Here’s the thing — the LSAT is quite literally step 1 in the grand scheme of things. My ultimate goal is to become an attorney. There is so much that I want to do with a legal degree, and I know that if I never conqueror this test I will never have the chance to speak up for those that can’t speak for themselves. A chance to protect victims of domestic violence. A chance to free the wrongly convicted. A chance to live out the desire of my heart.

I love being a mom, but my kids are my reason — not my excuse. So while it’s crazy to take on this goal with five young children (my oldest is only eight!), if anyone’s going to try, it’ll be me.

I tried back in 2014 when I had two kids ages two and under. I took the LSAT, had a crappy score, applied anyway and got in, mailed a seat deposit, and due to unforeseen circumstances I chose to wait. I tried to study many times since then, but ultimately have not re-taken the LSAT. Six years and five kids later, I am going to try again. Maybe I’ll succeed, maybe I won’t, but I have to at least try again. And I’ll try again and again until I succeed.

Mailing my seat deposit in 2014

I am aiming to take the October test, which gives me 5 months and 1 week to study. Who’s taking this test? I need an accountability partner! Let’s do this!!!